BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU
by KaiLisis aka Syaoran-Lover aka KaiLi

I left you some time ago
and though not that far away
we're still some miles apart
different routines day-by-day

I know I'm not around anymore
it doesn't mean that I don't care
you will grow forever stronger
even if I am no longer there

when I left the group back then
you were the first to ask me why
those eyes that shined concern
pure innocence doesn't die

our lives keep us at distance
we don't see each other much
but all this will make us wiser
still we miss each other's touch

I turned my back to the ones
that cared about me the most
people I shared a bond with
that I was always glad to host

stuff happens every now and then
and we can not escape the curse
all we can do is face it bravely
bare the consequences, bad or worse

there's a reason behind everything
and this time is no exception
I can only give you a few details
but nothing worthy of reflection

I will explain it later on
if I ever get the chance
though I really want to share it
I have first to make a stance

these barriers that separate us
sometimes they do much more
we can barely realize their location
but we know they're there for sure

these recollections I treasure
they are both yours and mine
we share a lot of memories
of both compliment and whine

but the reason I am calling
surprisingly early today
is because tomorrow will be
the dawn of a special day

from midnight forward
you'll be one year older
hopefully a little smarter
and perhaps a little bolder

there are words I want to tell you
things I really want to say
like the fact that I still love you
and that I wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I know we've been separated
but it's only for some time
I'll come back sooner or later
you will hear the bell chime

and when I do return to you
I hope I'll be welcomed back
because being with our group
is one thing I don't want to lack

the bond makes us stronger
it makes us want to live
it gives us strength to fight
later, we'll be the ones to give

but when I come back, I warn
I might never be the same
my insides may be changed
new rules of this never-ending game

don't be scared when you see me next
I might change far beyond salvation
though it'll be no one else's fault
only a step to my own damnation

and the feelings we've aroused
do not let them die within
keep them where they'll be needed
at the surface of your skin

our kind will never learn
though you'll always be a friend
I'll carry off our memories
witnesses to a tragic end